I killed a person whose last moments were spent wanting to spare me the pain of that deed. I sacrificed him for something important, but his blood remains on my hands. And the person who did die was possessed by a shadow, did not act of his own volition as I did.
So I am not very happy, no. But I am alive, and my home will live, and I cannot regret that, either.
...I think I get it. There are just some things you don't want to say because you don't know if it'll be compromising yet or not. Too many unknown factors right now.
Quite. And Yuri will cover for me, but I believe he has other alliances here and other things he cares about.
Frankly, given Sheila's friendship with Bradley, it may have been a mistake to tell her. She won't do anything to harm me, but she may have been better off not knowing. I thought about it.
And yet you made the choice to trust her anyway. [interesting.]
...in the end, people are more likely to protect their own, and from what I know about Yuri so far, if he ever gets word of it your alliance will come first. Same with Mrs. Hammond. Small mercies and whatever.
...Yes. [she frowns.] I know that. And it's not an alliance. Sheila, especially - she's my friend. She cares about me. [she says this in a small voice, like she's aware it sounds pathetic.]
But I don't wish for my decisions to be a burden on someone else. I've done something awful. There's an argument for not telling anyone at all, so they aren't charged with the task of lying for me.
...I think...only your friends can decide if the things you tell them are burdens or not. [they seem to falter, like they're actually not sure what to say.] And from where I can see, I doubt they see it that way anyway.
All that can be done now is preparing for whatever stupid stuff is going to happen next week. The pattern's a little comforting, but even we don't really know what's coming up.
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I've been better. But you know. Three bodies. Execution. It's been a busy weekend.
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What trouble?
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Ah. So you remember everything now?
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I killed a person whose last moments were spent wanting to spare me the pain of that deed. I sacrificed him for something important, but his blood remains on my hands. And the person who did die was possessed by a shadow, did not act of his own volition as I did.
So I am not very happy, no. But I am alive, and my home will live, and I cannot regret that, either.
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...then what's your plan for moving forward next? Lingering doesn't do much, and I'm sure you know that.
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[that's really all she can do.]
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[. . .]
You tell anybody else yet?
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[but that doesn't mean she will rule out the possibility.]
Mollymauk, Lup, and Sheila. I trust them.
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Unsurprising though. You guys seem like you got really close at your station. [...though.] Not Yuri?
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Frankly, given Sheila's friendship with Bradley, it may have been a mistake to tell her. She won't do anything to harm me, but she may have been better off not knowing. I thought about it.
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...in the end, people are more likely to protect their own, and from what I know about Yuri so far, if he ever gets word of it your alliance will come first. Same with Mrs. Hammond. Small mercies and whatever.
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But I don't wish for my decisions to be a burden on someone else. I've done something awful. There's an argument for not telling anyone at all, so they aren't charged with the task of lying for me.
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So...yeah.
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All that can be done now is preparing for whatever stupid stuff is going to happen next week. The pattern's a little comforting, but even we don't really know what's coming up.
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