I killed a person whose last moments were spent wanting to spare me the pain of that deed. I sacrificed him for something important, but his blood remains on my hands. And the person who did die was possessed by a shadow, did not act of his own volition as I did.
So I am not very happy, no. But I am alive, and my home will live, and I cannot regret that, either.
...I think I get it. There are just some things you don't want to say because you don't know if it'll be compromising yet or not. Too many unknown factors right now.
Quite. And Yuri will cover for me, but I believe he has other alliances here and other things he cares about.
Frankly, given Sheila's friendship with Bradley, it may have been a mistake to tell her. She won't do anything to harm me, but she may have been better off not knowing. I thought about it.
And yet you made the choice to trust her anyway. [interesting.]
...in the end, people are more likely to protect their own, and from what I know about Yuri so far, if he ever gets word of it your alliance will come first. Same with Mrs. Hammond. Small mercies and whatever.
...Yes. [she frowns.] I know that. And it's not an alliance. Sheila, especially - she's my friend. She cares about me. [she says this in a small voice, like she's aware it sounds pathetic.]
But I don't wish for my decisions to be a burden on someone else. I've done something awful. There's an argument for not telling anyone at all, so they aren't charged with the task of lying for me.
...I think...only your friends can decide if the things you tell them are burdens or not. [they seem to falter, like they're actually not sure what to say.] And from where I can see, I doubt they see it that way anyway.
All that can be done now is preparing for whatever stupid stuff is going to happen next week. The pattern's a little comforting, but even we don't really know what's coming up.
...the worst part about all of this is that once the trial's over, we can't really talk about stuff you didn't find out. It's sort of the same way we can discuss other culprits and everything. Keeps the game "interesting."
I think that's probably a safe bet, seeing how you guys watch the shadows leave the body entirely. The problem with trying to check that theory is shadows are shadows. They move seamlessly. They hide in corners and wait for people not to notice to sneak up on them.
Think about the patterns you've seen already, and you might find a direction for that theory.
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I killed a person whose last moments were spent wanting to spare me the pain of that deed. I sacrificed him for something important, but his blood remains on my hands. And the person who did die was possessed by a shadow, did not act of his own volition as I did.
So I am not very happy, no. But I am alive, and my home will live, and I cannot regret that, either.
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...then what's your plan for moving forward next? Lingering doesn't do much, and I'm sure you know that.
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[that's really all she can do.]
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[. . .]
You tell anybody else yet?
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[but that doesn't mean she will rule out the possibility.]
Mollymauk, Lup, and Sheila. I trust them.
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Unsurprising though. You guys seem like you got really close at your station. [...though.] Not Yuri?
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Frankly, given Sheila's friendship with Bradley, it may have been a mistake to tell her. She won't do anything to harm me, but she may have been better off not knowing. I thought about it.
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...in the end, people are more likely to protect their own, and from what I know about Yuri so far, if he ever gets word of it your alliance will come first. Same with Mrs. Hammond. Small mercies and whatever.
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But I don't wish for my decisions to be a burden on someone else. I've done something awful. There's an argument for not telling anyone at all, so they aren't charged with the task of lying for me.
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So...yeah.
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All that can be done now is preparing for whatever stupid stuff is going to happen next week. The pattern's a little comforting, but even we don't really know what's coming up.
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Is it still impossible to tell us whether there were one shadow or two?
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...I admit to being rather repulsed by the notion that I am the only one to act on my own.
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...you might be further repulsed by the notion you're likely not gonna be the only one for long. People are bound to start getting bold soon.
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How would one look into that theory?
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Think about the patterns you've seen already, and you might find a direction for that theory.