outsidebones: (face)

[personal profile] outsidebones 2022-06-27 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, alright.

[goes to see her in person.]

Vulpecula, may I also...may I try to get her to choose a specific person if I know I intend to target them? Or even to get her to choose me? Or would that...not work, or be a breach of contract, or disappoint the host?
outsidebones: (💀 sphenoid)

[personal profile] outsidebones 2022-06-28 12:03 am (UTC)(link)
[she sticks a fountain pen in her mouth, draws blood, and signs in blood. that's still a thing.]

So don't tell her outright I plan to kill someone. But I can help her think of ideas this week and hopefully she'll choose one of my suggestions...?
outsidebones: (fingers)

[personal profile] outsidebones 2022-06-28 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
Quite. Well. It's difficult. I imagine Kim Dokja is already considering whether I would come after him, so he's out of the question, and Rin is too young. So the obvious targets are out, but perhaps Aikawa...? She was suspicious of him, too.
outsidebones: (💀 vertebra prominens)

[personal profile] outsidebones 2022-06-28 12:35 am (UTC)(link)
I'm going to buy a gun and use my power to command them to do the deed themselves. The size discrepancy will only work to my advantage.
outsidebones: (the horses they were neighing)

[personal profile] outsidebones 2022-06-28 01:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I do know what I'm doing. [a sigh.]

I know you will hate me saying this, but it feels almost wrong to ask her to choose me this week. There was something poetic about the notion of dying for my house.
outsidebones: (the bullet ripped inside my chest)

[personal profile] outsidebones 2022-06-28 02:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[she seems a bit stunned by the outburst for a moment, and then she laughs slightly, rubbing at her face.]

I'm sorry. I'm taking advantage of you, aren't I? Saying these things, knowing you can't do anything about them.
outsidebones: (💀 will wake you with a boo)

[personal profile] outsidebones 2022-06-28 02:19 pm (UTC)(link)
I do value my life. [a small wry smile.] Too much. I've always chosen to live, even when I wasn't supposed to.

I'm not really a person, Vulpecula. I'm the souls of two hundred dead children, and I exist to serve my House. The notion of putting those souls to rest, finally, in service of their home is...there's a justice in it.

But I don't want to die.
outsidebones: (💀 hinge joint)

[personal profile] outsidebones 2022-06-28 02:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[...she glances away, embarrassed and a bit miserable, something needy and ashamed about her.]

I told Lup to choose me, so...you needn't worry.
outsidebones: (shin)

[personal profile] outsidebones 2022-06-28 02:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't be sorry. [she's chewing her lip hard enough to draw blood.] I'm the one who...I don't know how to be someone else, besides all of that, and still...
outsidebones: (💀 lamellae)

[personal profile] outsidebones 2022-06-28 06:03 pm (UTC)(link)
...I am not so good at doing so.

[also, i'm giving you a memory.]
outsidebones: (💀 c5)

[personal profile] outsidebones 2022-06-29 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
[she wipes at her face, but in some ways, that memory is a fond one.]

...He felt so differently about all of it than I expected him to.
outsidebones: (💀 vertebral column)

[personal profile] outsidebones 2022-06-29 11:55 am (UTC)(link)
Yes. [a slightly wet laugh.] I was always dreadful to him. My parents killed his father. [...] They didn't only kill him, they demanded that he kill himself, and he did it without question.

All Ortus cared about was his poetry, and I forced him to be my cavalier, and I put him in the situation that eventually led to his death for my own personal, petty reason. He would have been well within his rights to hate me.

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