Of course it doesn't. But I believe you and I both are well aware that you cannot always let your emotions get in the way when others require you to be at your best.
...I believe perhaps the most difficult part of any trial is the reveal of the truth and how it impacts the people closest to the culprits. Or, additionally, if the truth is never found.
It's incredibly frustrating. I prefer to take action when I can, but in our current position as staff, there's only so much we are permitted to do. Guests must perform certain tasks on their own.
[well. they kind of look at his hands for a moment before they take both of them. they are now holding hands even if gemini is thinking things through.]
...but I am aware this isn't the first time a situation like this has happened.
[he's just going to hold gemini's hands then, giving them a gentle squeeze]
.... even if things are meant to repeat, and repeat, the scars they leave upon the heart remain.
At times they will ache worse, the more you love those involved.
[he should know. he does know - all too well.]
But... it is important to me that I express that I see you, and all that you are attempting to do for us. And I wish to assist you, as much as I am similarly able.
[this is true. but they aren't sure what to say, really, at the risk of saying too much and maybe they pause for a moment to think.]
...I don't think there's anything that guests can do to help staff, or vice versa. We are meant to serve where we are permitted to, regardless of how much we may or may not care for you. [. . .] But it is appreciated. Everything.
Mm. I understand it well. Having to work within your duty, regardless of what your heart may feel. Even for one such as myself who is fond of taking things more as guidelines...
[ . . . ]
But even then - when I had been in your role, there was a certain comfort that came with the presence of others.
Unsurprising. [there's almost a hint of fondness, because they do have that impression.]
...when you were in this position, how often were you able to actually help others? And how often were they left on their own to make their own choices?
... you would have to ask them, I'm afraid. How often I am able to truly help others... it is something I think on often, but the answer does not belong to me. Still, I suppose it shall not stop me from trying.
[he will lift a hand then to gently pat gemini atop the head]
But ultimately... with or without my help, those choices were always their own. That is their freedom, to both fly and fall.
[i feel like i should note that currently mikazuki and gemini are the same height, but they don't exactly shy away from the headpat either.]
...I suppose you have a point. Here, in this place, all of you have the same amount of freedom to make your own choices. I'm simply afraid of unintentionally offering help that I may not actually be able to give.
[they're still getting a headpat because spiritually they feel like a grandson
everyone is young to mikazuki. except yoo joonghyuk]
... you needn't make any offer in specific. At times, it is not even what you can tangibly provide for people that might save them, or ease their heart.
...I often find myself wondering what happens, then, if I cannot even offer those when people are in most need of them. But I think those are questions for me to ponder on my own rather than burden guests with them.
Perhaps it is. There are some things that the heart needs to resolve on its own.
... in the same breath, I too can only offer you company and sincerity. And so if it is something that you would like to speak into the space between us, to free it from the confines of your chest so that another might hear - I am available for that too.
[it does help. in its own way. it helps, and even if there isn't much they can do with it, they bow their head in a show of gratitude.]
You have my thanks, Mikazuki-san. I'm unsure if I will ever be able to speak of these things but...[...they seem to just...think. and change their mind.] I appreciate the offer a lot. Maybe someday I'll take you up on it.
Cetus. Orion. Lepus. Virgo. I think the rest of us are managing decently, but the personalities of the four of them...may not be immediately comforting to guests. Whether they're abrasive or simply neutral.
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But I do not require you to be any other but yourself.
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...but I am aware this isn't the first time a situation like this has happened.
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.... even if things are meant to repeat, and repeat, the scars they leave upon the heart remain.
At times they will ache worse, the more you love those involved.
[he should know. he does know - all too well.]
But... it is important to me that I express that I see you, and all that you are attempting to do for us. And I wish to assist you, as much as I am similarly able.
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...I don't think there's anything that guests can do to help staff, or vice versa. We are meant to serve where we are permitted to, regardless of how much we may or may not care for you. [. . .] But it is appreciated. Everything.
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Mm. I understand it well. Having to work within your duty, regardless of what your heart may feel. Even for one such as myself who is fond of taking things more as guidelines...
[ . . . ]
But even then - when I had been in your role, there was a certain comfort that came with the presence of others.
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...when you were in this position, how often were you able to actually help others? And how often were they left on their own to make their own choices?
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[he will lift a hand then to gently pat gemini atop the head]
But ultimately... with or without my help, those choices were always their own. That is their freedom, to both fly and fall.
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...I suppose you have a point. Here, in this place, all of you have the same amount of freedom to make your own choices. I'm simply afraid of unintentionally offering help that I may not actually be able to give.
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everyone is young to mikazuki. except yoo joonghyuk]
... you needn't make any offer in specific. At times, it is not even what you can tangibly provide for people that might save them, or ease their heart.
One's presence and sincerity can be enough.
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...I often find myself wondering what happens, then, if I cannot even offer those when people are in most need of them. But I think those are questions for me to ponder on my own rather than burden guests with them.
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Perhaps it is. There are some things that the heart needs to resolve on its own.
... in the same breath, I too can only offer you company and sincerity. And so if it is something that you would like to speak into the space between us, to free it from the confines of your chest so that another might hear - I am available for that too.
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You have my thanks, Mikazuki-san. I'm unsure if I will ever be able to speak of these things but...[...they seem to just...think. and change their mind.] I appreciate the offer a lot. Maybe someday I'll take you up on it.
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You need not rush, nor push yourself. I am an old man, after all... and so the offer has no such expiration.
I shall always make myself available to you, whenever and wherever you might need me. That is my own duty, and my joy.
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A favor, if you will. [they consider how to phrase this.] You've extended such an offer to the other members of the staff, I presume?
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[but he'll leave it at that. he understands what gemini is getting at.]
Mm. As much as I am able, to those I have spoken to.
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Who would you name as those you are most concerned over? I am curious to hear it from your perspective as well.
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[me showing up in audiences again first thing in the morning]
But I am awfully fond of the others. You do not have to worry about whether or not they remain in my care.
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...but I'm happy to hear that. So long as they're acknowledged as part of this staff, I'm satisfied.
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