I'm not really an expert on how "time" works. But it's probably as you say—it's less about whether specific events stay the same, as so much the ultimate impact it leaves. But people might argue about how much influence even small events have, I guess.
... I imagine it's hard to just leave things be, if you can avert tragedy.
... "it is the sad moments that make us who we are". That is a friend said to me once... but there are moments in history where one must inquire whether such tragedy was truly necessary. Depending on who you might ask, it may very well be.
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But there are even the slight deviations. When bonds are stronger, it may spare a life. When even one life is spared, it could lead to something new entirely.
A regret I have is... I cannot get to see how these seeds of difference may bloom. The history I know... is well enough.
The history I do not know, in the ways that might be better or worse... it never even receives its chance.
... I wouldn't disagree with your friend. Often, it's the tragedy in our lives that we recall rather than the happiness. [...] Though on a personal level, if those moments were needed... they say misery build character, but that may only be if you expect to live a life where a hardened heart is needed.
[they're quiet for a bit, as if mulling over mikazuki's words and trying to figure out what to say.]
Such is the nature of decisions. It's easy to make one if you know it will unilaterally lead to a better outcome, but... when it might undo so much else, you feel obliged to let go.
[to decide what will be sacrificed.]
But that struggle you feel—I think it's a good thing.
... whether it is good or bad, it is the role I will play.
[and with that comes the return of his usual smile, aloof and gently amused... but not without fondness]
Ultimately... I feel as though the decisions about the future of humanity are not mine to make. They are not anyone else's but theirs... and yet there exists in and of itself a system that has decided what is fated to be.
I wonder how much longer it will be able to retain its shape.
... Mm. Such systems can seem quite unfair, I would imagine.
It's up to each individual if they want to try and defy destiny, even if it means bringing everything else down, or if they'll accept the role that the world has assigned them.
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I'm not really an expert on how "time" works. But it's probably as you say—it's less about whether specific events stay the same, as so much the ultimate impact it leaves. But people might argue about how much influence even small events have, I guess.
... I imagine it's hard to just leave things be, if you can avert tragedy.
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[ . . . ]
But there are even the slight deviations. When bonds are stronger, it may spare a life. When even one life is spared, it could lead to something new entirely.
A regret I have is... I cannot get to see how these seeds of difference may bloom. The history I know... is well enough.
The history I do not know, in the ways that might be better or worse... it never even receives its chance.
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[they're quiet for a bit, as if mulling over mikazuki's words and trying to figure out what to say.]
Such is the nature of decisions. It's easy to make one if you know it will unilaterally lead to a better outcome, but... when it might undo so much else, you feel obliged to let go.
[to decide what will be sacrificed.]
But that struggle you feel—I think it's a good thing.
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[and with that comes the return of his usual smile, aloof and gently amused... but not without fondness]
Ultimately... I feel as though the decisions about the future of humanity are not mine to make. They are not anyone else's but theirs... and yet there exists in and of itself a system that has decided what is fated to be.
I wonder how much longer it will be able to retain its shape.
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It's up to each individual if they want to try and defy destiny, even if it means bringing everything else down, or if they'll accept the role that the world has assigned them.
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But even this old man has gotten the idea that perhaps not everything can be done by oneself.
[with that said though, he tilts his head]
Have I been able to say something that might help you understand me better?
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It would feel foolish or arrogant to say yes, knowing there's still plenty more you keep to your chest.
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[he doesn't deny it]
Is it not good to start somewhere?
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... you might always ask me if you are curious, dear Cetus.
I have been told sometimes my answers are unsatisfying... but it is not as though one can live an entirely untruthful life at all moments.
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Only just enough.
Or that is to say... I will never fault anyone for curiosity. If anything, it is a trait I enjoy very much.
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There's a lot you enjoy, I think.
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... In some ways, you have quite the heart.
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and hums softly at that, a bit amused]
Careful, or I might take that as a compliment.
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Well, it's a bit of both.
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[very sword of cetus]
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Some people consider caring about strangers to be a weakness.
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It does give you an awful lot more to lose.
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[stop]
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How's it working out for you?
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