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[i think a lot about how i dont think he ever knew lup and cloud were actually really dating because he was busy being an idiot elsewhere. anyway! they are in the realm, and they pause before tugging on her hand to get her to change direction.]

Well, if you insist on knowing. [they begin to lead her onward, heading to...a building! it looks very non-descript outside though.]

Close your eyes first.

[closes my eyes forever

anyway! realm. she doesn't seem to mind being dragged around, happily following after them. when they tell her to close her eyes, she does, obediently. this is like, asking for trouble, but she apparently trusts them enough to just do whatever they say forever.]

[imagine if they just led her to one of the hall doors instead and left her there. luckily, they are nicer than that. lup will hear a door opening as they lead her inside, and soon the door closes behind them.]

...okay. You may open them now.

[and when she does, she will find herself in an extremely dark room with countless stars spread across the ceiling for forever. welcome to the planetarium.]

[that'd be very funny and she'd deserve it, to be honest.

this is very funny because lup did in fact proposition jason and cloud in the station's planetarium but she's not fuckin' telling gemini that. instead, she makes a little gaspy sound and squeezes their hand tightly.]

Oh - I didn't know there was one here, too. [wahhh. she loves these.] ... It's so pretty.

[MOTHER.

anyway wheeeee stars!!! they seem very pleased with themselves, swining their joint hands back and forth.]

By my notes--[in gemini fashion.]--this planetarium was used when participants in the Realm wanted to call for their Leaders to speak to them privately. It...also just happened to be a place people would go to get away for a while or watch the stars or be with other people.

[DSDKKS STOP DON'T BOLD MOTHER HER

she joins in swinging their hands, very amused and very fond by how pleased they are.]

Ahh. Makes sense. [...] I got some memories of this kid I thought was pretty uh, pretty rad, during the memory week. Sora. I wonder if I hung out with him in here, any.

[subtle, lup.]

[very subtle, lup. but...they can play that game. there's a moment where gemini seems to hold her hand a little tighter, glancing at the ceiling.]

Mm...perhaps yes. I believe he found this place familiar to his home, so he would often spend time here. Likely, you brought him one of these--[they are still holding the cinnamon roll for some reason?]--and would sit with him while he pondered how to fix everything and look at all of the constellations. You might have bonded over traveling through space and the different stars. You probably made plans here, talked about different things you weren't sure you could talk to others about...

...likely, this is where you became friends.

[she just laces their fingers, staring up at the ceiling, at the stars.]

That sounds nice. [she says, soft, smiling a little.] I hope he realized he didn't have to fix everything on his own.

[she swings their hands a little, gently.] I wish I could remember more of her. I like being me, but... you know.

[the other her was significantly less traumatized.]

You would have to ask him if you ever saw him again, but I think it's going to be a continuous lesson. [they look at the stars then.]

...I think you're still you regardless of what memories you possess. This is just a more whole version of yourself. To be able to piece together who you would like to really be.

Ain't that the truth.

[she means about the continuous lesson. as for the rest, she just sighs.]

... Maybe. [...] I keep trying to twist myself to be anything but Wrath, these days.

What makes you so sure you're only Wrath instead of being Lup?

That's - that's the question, really, isn't it?

[she says, glancing at them.] I'm not sure. I'm trying to figure it out.

I guess the real question is...who do you think Wrath is?

[they can maybe figure it out together.]

[she thinks about it, for a moment.]

Someone angry. Someone scared. Selfish.

'kay. Then who do you think Lup is?

[they seem to have an answer regardless of what hers is.]

[a pause.]

That's, uh. That's where it gets tricky. I know what I'd like Lup to be.

[a pause.]

What would you like Lup to be? Ideally.

... I guess someone safe. An anchor. Does that make sense?

Yes. Of course it makes sense. What doesn't make sense is why you think that isn't something you already are already. [...] And anyway I think you can still be someone safe even if you're also scared.

[she glances at them. just briefly, before looking away.]

I hope so. I can only guess at how I come off to other people, that's all. And I don't think I do, to some, even if I very much want to.

Have you considered...you know, asking? You never know if you don't ask in a lot of cases.

Yes, bud, I'm gonna go up to people and ask them if I make them feel safe, that's not weird or anything.

It doesn't have to be in that many words, Lup. [a bump to her shoulder.] You know what I mean.

[huff!!]

I'm gonna give you the same advice I gave Harrowhark. In order to get something from someone, you have to give a little of yourself. So. Tell people how you feel about them and they're bound to do the same.

[her ear flicks.]

I like you. [she can start with that, maybe?] You're my favorite.

[that gets them to laugh.]

I like you too, obviously. It's been...very nice being able to spend time with you. ["again."]

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