AUDIENCE FOR: Lup

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mostly void, partially stars.

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[evocationary]

[she just laces their fingers, staring up at the ceiling, at the stars.]

That sounds nice. [she says, soft, smiling a little.] I hope he realized he didn't have to fix everything on his own.

[she swings their hands a little, gently.] I wish I could remember more of her. I like being me, but... you know.

[the other her was significantly less traumatized.]

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You would have to ask him if you ever saw him again, but I think it's going to be a continuous lesson. [they look at the stars then.]

...I think you're still you regardless of what memories you possess. This is just a more whole version of yourself. To be able to piece together who you would like to really be.

[evocationary]

Ain't that the truth.

[she means about the continuous lesson. as for the rest, she just sighs.]

... Maybe. [...] I keep trying to twist myself to be anything but Wrath, these days.

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What makes you so sure you're only Wrath instead of being Lup?

[evocationary]

That's - that's the question, really, isn't it?

[she says, glancing at them.] I'm not sure. I'm trying to figure it out.

[guestservices]

I guess the real question is...who do you think Wrath is?

[they can maybe figure it out together.]

[evocationary]

[she thinks about it, for a moment.]

Someone angry. Someone scared. Selfish.

[guestservices]

'kay. Then who do you think Lup is?

[they seem to have an answer regardless of what hers is.]

[evocationary]

[a pause.]

That's, uh. That's where it gets tricky. I know what I'd like Lup to be.

[guestservices]

[a pause.]

What would you like Lup to be? Ideally.

[evocationary]

... I guess someone safe. An anchor. Does that make sense?

[guestservices]

Yes. Of course it makes sense. What doesn't make sense is why you think that isn't something you already are already. [...] And anyway I think you can still be someone safe even if you're also scared.

[evocationary]

[she glances at them. just briefly, before looking away.]

I hope so. I can only guess at how I come off to other people, that's all. And I don't think I do, to some, even if I very much want to.

[guestservices]

Have you considered...you know, asking? You never know if you don't ask in a lot of cases.

[evocationary]

Yes, bud, I'm gonna go up to people and ask them if I make them feel safe, that's not weird or anything.

[guestservices]

It doesn't have to be in that many words, Lup. [a bump to her shoulder.] You know what I mean.

[huff!!]

I'm gonna give you the same advice I gave Harrowhark. In order to get something from someone, you have to give a little of yourself. So. Tell people how you feel about them and they're bound to do the same.

[evocationary]

[her ear flicks.]

I like you. [she can start with that, maybe?] You're my favorite.

[guestservices]

[that gets them to laugh.]

I like you too, obviously. It's been...very nice being able to spend time with you. ["again."]

[evocationary]

It's been nice to get to know you.

["again."]

[guestservices]

I've been told it's quite difficult. I am trying to rectify that.