[she pulls her hair down over her face like a toddler trying to dodge responsibility. she can't do it as well because it isn't as long as it used to be...]
I can't. [she says, after a moment.] I mean - when everything is finished, sure. But it won't be that easy, and I have to stop all of this. Feels like there's too many loose ends to just talk about the end like it'll be a given.
The contract terms are going to end no matter what actually happens, Lup. That much is a given. So it's not so much that the end won't happen. It's just about if it's an end you'd be happy with, and you already told me you won't be until you figure out a way to maybe bring all of those people back.
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...try to think less like you're solely responsible for doing this by yourself.
That's the same thing in my head, you know. An end, and an end that I'm happy with. It's not an end if we leave this place without everybody, and it's not an end if it happens again.
[she doesn't say it in an aggressive way, though, just. tired.]
I don't... I don't think I am. [solely responsible. mostly. sometimes you have a savior complex.]
[...they don't say anything to that because that was sort of the point they were getting at. so they nod and decide it's not worth reiterating when lup got the point.]
I'm not sure I fully believe that at this point. [because they are aware of how lup is, and they're not sure she realizes it herself. also sometimes savior complex too big because you want to help everyone.] All I'm saying is that it's okay to rely on other people. Getting whatever ending you want isn't going to only fall on you.
You don't have to come up with one for me. [she says, glancing at them.] I don't know what I'm looking for either. It's not fair to make you figure it out.
...I said this to Cloud, but I want to do things even if I can't do them in the way I'd like to right now. So. I always want to try. I know it's going to get messed up because of how the hotel is, but I know you're smart enough to understand what I'm saying.
I don't think it's about making it easier for us anymore. I appreciate the sentiment, but...you know the situation. It has to be this way, but that doesn't make it any better for anybody.
[considering they're still posing as someone lup knows too well.]
Exactly. And it's always like that, but at least before we had a better idea how to deal with it. But here, the staff have different rules and different job functions.
I think there is a very blatant difference for one thing. [such as not being who they're pretending to be.] But...we do and do not have a bit more flexibility with some things than you did. But I suppose the biggest difference is we are employed. The UWU was just kind of...there and taking advantage of you guys, right?
[to the first part. but the second part:] I... yeah, it was, but this whole set up doesn't exactly feel like employment to me. Employment suggests the ability to quit.
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I can't. [she says, after a moment.] I mean - when everything is finished, sure. But it won't be that easy, and I have to stop all of this. Feels like there's too many loose ends to just talk about the end like it'll be a given.
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...try to think less like you're solely responsible for doing this by yourself.
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[she doesn't say it in an aggressive way, though, just. tired.]
I don't... I don't think I am. [solely responsible. mostly. sometimes you have a savior complex.]
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I'm not sure I fully believe that at this point. [because they are aware of how lup is, and they're not sure she realizes it herself. also sometimes savior complex too big because you want to help everyone.] All I'm saying is that it's okay to rely on other people. Getting whatever ending you want isn't going to only fall on you.
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Sure. [she doesn't really want to argue about it.]
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I'm sorry. I don't...really know what answer you're looking for right now.
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I wish I could make it easier for you.
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[considering they're still posing as someone lup knows too well.]
...can we both just agree this sucks?
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Yeah, it does. It sucks so many eggs I can't fit them all in my mouth.
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[:unamused:
but also :pensive:]
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Any really weird differences?
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[to the first part. but the second part:] I... yeah, it was, but this whole set up doesn't exactly feel like employment to me. Employment suggests the ability to quit.
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