Yeah. I doubt I have to tell you anything I'm thinking about it.
[ emet... big.
they're like, half unwinding the fret bracelet while they talk, though it's just to do something with their hands. ]
If you really want to know what I think, you need to stop comparing yourself to him. You're right, that you aren't him, and I know, fate, unavoidable, all of that, but that's not right now. You're you, right now. What you could become a million years in the future, or what you might become at home, is out of your hands. If you let yourself get bogged down in him, then, you're never going to make any steps forward or backwards. You're just gonna stand still.
I know. I just think you're getting in your head about it, again. 's all. [ what's it like to be so cerebral. ] It just comes down to - are you going to let his memories influence you into acting? Or into not?
[ at least there's that. they finish unwinding the bracelet, and come back close to emet again, back into his space. ]
's part of why you need to keep this, okay? I get - I know what you're doing, I promise, I just... I need you to hold onto it. Like a reminder, if nothing else.
[ they squeeze his hand when he takes it back, gentle, and they do seem very genuine, in their thanks. ] 'm only kidding, about the tips. Jeez. Your presence's enough.
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[he mutters, with a shake of his head.]
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[huffs.]
I do have my concerns. Were I rushing in heedlessly, I would have already done it.
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[ emet... big.
they're like, half unwinding the fret bracelet while they talk, though it's just to do something with their hands. ]
If you really want to know what I think, you need to stop comparing yourself to him. You're right, that you aren't him, and I know, fate, unavoidable, all of that, but that's not right now. You're you, right now. What you could become a million years in the future, or what you might become at home, is out of your hands. If you let yourself get bogged down in him, then, you're never going to make any steps forward or backwards. You're just gonna stand still.
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[and no one knows him, not really.]
I've worked to remedy this, yes, but it is not so simple to ignore his existence, particularly with his memories.
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I know. I just think you're getting in your head about it, again. 's all. [ what's it like to be so cerebral. ] It just comes down to - are you going to let his memories influence you into acting? Or into not?
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Good.
[ at least there's that. they finish unwinding the bracelet, and come back close to emet again, back into his space. ]
's part of why you need to keep this, okay? I get - I know what you're doing, I promise, I just... I need you to hold onto it. Like a reminder, if nothing else.
...okay?
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[he mutters, with a little shake of his head...
but he does take it back, if reluctantly.]
...fine.
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[ they squeeze his hand when he takes it back, gentle, and they do seem very genuine, in their thanks. ] 'm only kidding, about the tips. Jeez. Your presence's enough.
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[lightly teasing, this time.]
...speaking of my presence, however. I don't suppose you would be allowed to join me Thursday night, wherever I may end up.
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I can't really promise you anything. Could try, I guess, but don't get your hopes up. I have stuff to do.
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[ they prod him in the chest a little with one hand, joking a bit. ]