...yeah. We talked about the before, I remember. [ that must be pretty isolating, yeah. they're quiet for a moment. ]
... Hate to say it, but people here are going to die no matter what. Even if you're from the same place, if you don't have that connection, then... it's gonna feel weird, but I don't think you're obligated to mourn it, either.
[ they just laugh a little more at that, and start to roll off of the bed for real. ]
Right, right.
[ and then straighten up, brushing themselves off. ] Business is kinda the point. I really ought to get back to mine, y'know.
[ but of course, as they say that, there's a soft shower of silvery stardust.
... you have a headache.
it's not really an unusual feeling. headaches come and go. this one's tight around your temples, painful, like you've been carrying the weight of something for too long, or... maybe even worse, like you just drank way, way too much the night before. that's not like you - you drink like a fish, but always seem to bounce back from a hangover with little trouble, but today, it is bothering you.
maybe you're just complaining. you say so to the girl beside you, who tells you of a cure that she knows to fix it. you laugh, and tease her - if she punches you in the nose as this magic cure, you're never going to forgive her - but she makes a comment about how of course it's just your face that'd earn her your ire.
you stick your face out for her, though, anyway, a little overdramatic, a little silly, and she presses her fingers into your temples. you can hear the soft jingle of her jewelry, and you find yourself not stiffening up or tensing, but just... relaxing into it, as she rubs your temples, up the line of your brow. she's all warm colors, and smells like flowers, and you...
you close your eyes, and you exhale out.
it's always the little things, isn't it? the things you love the most about her company. the things you've learned to come to trust. as she pulls back from you, you open your eyes, and you smile up at her, and you tell her her fingers are magical, which is incredibly inappropriate, but it makes her laugh, all the same. ]
[ ... oh.
well.
they weren't expecting that, clearly - their shoulders stiffen a bit where they're now standing...
... and then they laugh, a soft huff of it, reaching up to rub their face under their veil. ]
this kind of memory, personal as they are, is always more pleasant. a little warm. leaves him smiling, just slightly, just for a moment, after the end of it.]
You'd deserve it, were I to laugh at you in turn for being ridiculous.
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[ immediately.
a beat. ] You know me. Don't really regret my choices.
...Just sucks not to be able to do anything.
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[he's sure he knows. it's part of what makes all of this worse.]
Only being able to solve it after the fact, but never to prevent it. Knowing it shall continue. It is wearying.
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[ they sigh, bigger, rolling onto their back and folding their gloved hands on their chest. ]
Sorry. I don't mean to be depressing - know you didn't want to talk business.
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[after a few moments, he exhales a breath and just. rests his good hand on top of theirs.]
... I wonder if I ought to feel worse about it, that it was him.
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... they tilt their head a bit. ] That it was Kazunari?
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[...but, well. he's not that upset about it.]
Mm. I suppose it is simply somewhat isolating, overall, in comparison. To not have arrived with anyone I already had ties to.
[having this happen to one of the only others from the prism just sort of outlines that more.]
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...yeah. We talked about the before, I remember. [ that must be pretty isolating, yeah. they're quiet for a moment. ]
... Hate to say it, but people here are going to die no matter what. Even if you're from the same place, if you don't have that connection, then... it's gonna feel weird, but I don't think you're obligated to mourn it, either.
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[a longer pause.]
Coming here directly from the Prism -- I think I am growing accustomed to it, as they are.
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[ ...
their fingers twitch a little under his. ]
's a shit thing to have to get used to.
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Are you?
[used to it.]
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No.
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Whether you chose this duty or not-
I am sorry that you are here.
[if he's right, then
it's his fault.]
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Should really be me saying that to you. [ they're a little stiff again, but, it might just be the conversation topic. ]
Don't worry so much about me, huh...? Don't get too in your head about it.
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[it's not that easy.
anyway speaking of him being stupid about feelings it's sunday of memshare. they get a gay one this time.]
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well
they just laugh? they laugh, like they can't help it at first, startled out of them, turning their face into their shoulder. ]
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[SHOVING AT THEM WITH HIS GOOD HAND fuck]
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Hahahaha - ha, sorry. Sorry! Just didn't... whew.
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[he's still a little flustered at that memory, maybe.]
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[ whooo. they're on the edge of the bed now, and they just stay there, reaching up to wipe a tear under their veil. ]
You didn't say it back, huh?
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after a few moments, though:]
Not that day. But I did, eventually.
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Mmmhm. [ indulgent, but they're teasing. ]
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[he mutters, rolling his eyes.
anyway give me one more before the week ends also.]
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Right, right.
[ and then straighten up, brushing themselves off. ] Business is kinda the point. I really ought to get back to mine, y'know.
[ but of course, as they say that, there's a soft shower of silvery stardust.
[ ... oh.
well.
they weren't expecting that, clearly - their shoulders stiffen a bit where they're now standing...
... and then they laugh, a soft huff of it, reaching up to rub their face under their veil. ]
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this kind of memory, personal as they are, is always more pleasant. a little warm. leaves him smiling, just slightly, just for a moment, after the end of it.]
You'd deserve it, were I to laugh at you in turn for being ridiculous.
[he murmurs, but- he doesn't.]
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[ they snort a little, pulling their hand away from their face. ]
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