I got a memory of Lepus thinking they were trash. So I told them that they weren't, and they got furious at me, and I said - I wasn't going to stop trying, and they did that.
[continues to not tell anybody she egged them on in trying to kill her]
...yeah. It's unexpected, and it means you don't know what to do next. [understandable.] Are you going to try and talk to them again, or only do your job and leave it alone?
...I mean you shouldn't have to apologize. [so there's that.] But...maybe being persistent isn't bad. Depending on what's said. I think...if someone saw a memory of mine that I really, really didn't want them to, I'd be pretty mortified and probably lash out myself.
Maybe treating it like nothing's changed and slowly trying again is the best answer.
[she does, later, but right now, she absolutely does not want to apologize.]
I just - the... [she pauses, and bites her bottom lip.] What I felt from them, in that memory - I've felt like it. Not even just that, but I've never let this stop me before. The harder they push away, the more help they need.
Yeah...I can't say I disagree with you there. When you really convince yourself you're unwanted, or that you're trash, or that you're a detriment, undesired...whatever word you want, it's too hard to recognize that people might actually think that's not true.
...it'll work out. Just a little patience, even if it sucks.
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[... she absently rubs at her throat.] Good to know, I guess.
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...gonna tell me why, or am I guessing?
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[...]
Oh gods what did they do. [LEPUS!!!]
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Slammed me into a wall with a knife to my throat.
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Okay. Start over. What happened?
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I got a memory of Lepus thinking they were trash. So I told them that they weren't, and they got furious at me, and I said - I wasn't going to stop trying, and they did that.
[continues to not tell anybody she egged them on in trying to kill her]
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Are you okay?
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That's still not great. You know that, right? [angy!!!]
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[...] It scared me a little.
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I still have to work for them, too. [sighs.]
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Maybe treating it like nothing's changed and slowly trying again is the best answer.
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I just - the... [she pauses, and bites her bottom lip.] What I felt from them, in that memory - I've felt like it. Not even just that, but I've never let this stop me before. The harder they push away, the more help they need.
... I think you're right. [she says, finally.] Slowly trying again.
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...it'll work out. Just a little patience, even if it sucks.
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Yeah. Hoo boy. I am not a patient woman. [a beat.] But I can be, if I have to.
[with a patience she had no choice but to learn.] Thanks, Aquarius.
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...c'mon.
[they can go to the music room to hang out for a bit and i can free you from this thread if you'd like since gestures at fuck week.]