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That does not surprise me. [they almost sound amused.] Something easy and something to redirect your focus on, even at the expense of other people.

Wow! I deliberately kept the worst stories to myself, I'll have you know!

[a beat.] It was easy, though. Just for a bit.

I never thought you would be one to hold back, so color me impressed. [haha.] ...I believe that was the entire point of hosting such a party. A bit of a break from what's happened. A "boost of morale", if you will.

It worked out that way. It was nice to have before we had to worry about a body and a case.

[she pulls her hair down over her shoulder and sighs at it.]

Stop it, you.

[she can't see their face, but there's maybe a semblance of a smile there.]

I've said nothing wrong, have I?

No, you're doing great, like usual. [she says, making a face at them.] I can't wait for this effect to end.

If it's anything like the others, it'll be soon. But then you'll have to face something else.

God, I hope it's not the one with the memories. [she says, squinting at her hair.]

The...what?

The one where your memories get thrown out into the air for people to look at.

[...] Ah, fuck, I really hope the station doesn't show up again.

Ah. That sounds unfortunate. [terrible, actually.] ...what will you do if it does turn up?

[...]

See if the UWU is dead. I don't know if it'd be there, but it'd be relief.

Like assurance that you truly ended things the way they should have been ended.

[i keep forgetting words today i suck]

... Yeah, exactly that. [she sighs.] I always think it's going to be in my room on Fridays.

[me, a dumbass: what word did you even miss. i found it now. is okay.]

...I believe most people would call your previous situation traumatic. It's unsurprising to hear that you're still affected.

[screams]

I don't know if anything has ever fucked me up like that thing did. It's irritating.

[. . .]

What precisely is irritating about it?

[waves her hand.]

Everything. It makes things harder when it doesn't need to be. I about bit Aquila because they tried to hold onto me and I was like, mid fucking flashback. That's not their fault. It didn't need to be like that.

[...hm. not good. they pause then, trying to figure out what, exactly, to say to that.]

...perhaps not, but you cannot force yourself to get over something like that faster than you're ready to. You know that, right? Irritating as it is, it is simply a healing process that will take time. Though being here likely exacerbates it anyway.

[grumbles about this answer, too, shoving her hands in her pockets.]

I don't have time to let it heal. [the solution is probably not to pick at the wounds over and over again, but.]

Okay, yeah, but-- [and they stop. because right. that's...a fair point, too.]

...I don't know. I suppose I'm not exactly well-versed in this either.

I know. [she says, absently.] I appreciate it, though. You're just trying to help.

[a long sigh.]

...trying, though the level of success remains questionable.

[it's a little bit of a joke, but. they are kind of concerned here.]

It's better than anybody else I've talked to.

[she says, honestly.] ... You're a good listener. And you uh, you don't hit me with how your life also sucks worse, or uh, act like you're uncomfortable that I'm sad, so...

Thanks, I guess.

Are people actually doing that to you? [now they just sound mildly offended.]

...you deserve people who are going to listen to you and people you can be sad around without having to navigate what level of comfort is allowed. That's all.

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