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[personal profile] unrecked 2022-07-14 12:49 am (UTC)(link)
[He wonders why it's so hard to get himself together. Come on? He knows... He knows his mom is dead? He knows this. He remembers... being toyed with too. He remembers all this.

His mom isn't alive. And yet, every time, any time... when she's just there. He's not sure how he can be so full of love and sadness and hate at the same time. His brows furrow at the voice trying to come through.]


I... I tried. I tried, but... I wasn't... strong enough. You shouldn't be here. I'm sorry, Mom... You're... You're dead.
battling: ([C] Night Spent With You)

[personal profile] battling 2022-07-14 12:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ He can also hear another voice, but it's not quite strong enough.

A kiss to Nero's lips before he rests his forehead against his. ]


Who's the idiot, partner?
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[personal profile] unrecked 2022-07-14 01:19 am (UTC)(link)
[He doesn't recoil completely, but he does shift under the touch. NO. Don't touchie. He's got trauma. He does grab her wrist gently, though, making an attempt to lower her hand.]

I...

[He can't say yes. He knows... he knows he doesn't deserve that second chance. He knows, deep down, he doesn't want it either. For all the jokes he cracks, he's tired. He doesn't know why he couldn't just continue not existing.]

I don...

[?????????

He glances up at the extra voice.]
battling: ([G] Smile 13)

[personal profile] battling 2022-07-14 01:28 am (UTC)(link)
[His hand falls from his face, slipping into Nero's hand for a moment.]

Didn't want to let you go.

[And he still doesn't. There's a temptation to stay in this moment forever. They've both made their choices. Nero sold him out. Bradley won't do anything about it.

"I'm always on your side." Even if it means choosing to be blind to the truth of the matter.

A squeeze and he steps back.

This isn't real. This Nero isn't real.]


See you soon.

[And now-]

Ben?
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[personal profile] unrecked 2022-07-14 01:51 am (UTC)(link)
...Ben?

[How the FCK. He looks all around, and then... looks back to his mom. Oh, it hurts. He wishes this kind of hurt would go away. It never goes away.

He draws his mother to himself, wraps his arms around her. Gives her a hug.]
I'm sorry, Mom. I love you. [He draws away and steps back.

Because this isn't real. This mom isn't real.

As much as he hates it, he moves around her to head toward the light, his jaw hard and eyes burning.]
battling: ([M] Away)

[personal profile] battling 2022-07-14 01:53 am (UTC)(link)
[It's weird, being on this side.

Nero was the one who left him.

He looks at him one last time, and turns towards the light, moving towards it.

They can reunite for real later.]