You know the hotel does weird stuff all the time. So...it might be best to leave it for now even though I can see why you'd want to look into it. Don't tell me you actually woke up in the coffins...what a terrible way to find out people are dead.
[imagining just being stuck in a room and corpses fall from the ceiling. lovely. they finish covering the tomb with dirt and sit back with their hands on their knees, watching him put the flowers in.]
...thank you, Jason. [it's so stupid and in the longrun it doesn't change anything, but it does sort of make them feel a little better so.]
We were in purgatory, so... You sort of just woke up standing in front of the casket looking at yourself in it.
[Haha.... Imagine. It's fine. IT'S FINE. He bumps Aquarius with his shoulder gently.]
It's hard being the one left behind. Sometimes you're angry, sometimes you're sad. Sometimes you feel guilty. You're left with all this... stuff weighing you down. It's real hard to slog through.
But it's alright to keep living when people are gone. It's okay to forget them, but it's also okay to remember them too.
Waiting for judgment... [its murmured to themselves as they shake their head. the bump sort of jars them out of their thoughts though and they look at him again. ]
...I spent a long time forgetting my mother. And then I did everything I could to try and remember anything. And B--[too close. too much.] My sister left on a trip with a few of the others. They promised she'd be safe and come back. That obviously didn't happen, even if she was thinking of me when she died. To not remember either of them would disgrace their memory. I want to remember. Always. Even when it's too much.
[...] Some people understand. Some don't. So when they do it...helps, a little.
[and now they feel like they said too much so they just go quiet again. ]
I get it. My dad was a piece of shit; he died in prison. My mom was sick. Not physically, but mentally. She did drugs most of the time because of it. Just us two, starving and being poor. I'm the one who found her dead; she overdosed. I thought she did anyway.
I found out she wasn't later because a sociopath had her as a hostage. So I went on my own. Don't know how old you are, but how you felt in what I saw... I'm guessing I was probably about your age. Anyway. You saw how that turned out. She was with me when the whole place blew.
[His hands are dirty, but he reaches out to take a hold of one of Aquarius's and jostle it lightly. Affection week, sue him. He uses the hand to pull Aquarius up when he slowly rises.]
You're pretty strong, wanting to remember. I'm going to have to look up to you, I think?
[they listen again. they don't really agree or disagree, letting jason tell his story and when he takes their hand they let it swing a little before getting up when jason stands.]
I think...you and I may be more similar than you think, actually. [but they take a breath and seem to compose themselves again.] It's not something to do lightly. But...I think it's worth it, in the end.
[they're a little flattered and baffled and don't know how to deal so there you go.]
they let this happen this time though, a vaguely disgruntled noise that's half-hearted at best.]
Sure. Guest relations, you know? [a pause.] Thanks for remembering.
[to. do this? to tell them about the cyoa? that they exist period? sure. it's been a long, busy day and his girlfriend's emotionally distraught. they are aware other people need jason's attention.]
[STOP THEY ARE NOT CUTE AND SOFT god they're both truly suffering under the weight of affection week. they do stay still to let him fix the hat though and seem to be staring up at him from under the veil before they shrug.]
You'd show up whether I wanted you to or not. [they just point this out.] ...you're consistent. It'd be dumb to break the pattern now.
[so. yes. but they will die before outright admitting it.]
I'm a big boy. There's enough of me to go around. [He gives them a soft, but still teasing sort of look.] Just because there are other people, who for some weird ass reason like my company, doesn't mean I can't make time to hang out with you, too.
[no!! but there isn't really a noise when jason's hand hits their chest and instead they kind of bend to twirl away from the touch. there's a moment where they look at their gloves though which are now definitely covered in dirt.]
Joke's on you. I'm probably just going to bed.
[sometimes you depression nap.]
But fine. Go clean up and maybe relieve Cloud from Lup duty for a bit. I'll be around whenever.
[but they will at least be nice enough to take him by the hand to lead him out. were they just. in another part of the graveyard? what the fuck. the world will never know.]
[HAVE TO COME BACK. HELP. He is now embarrassed because he was heard and also is being escorted out of the graveyard by the hand like a toddler. DON'T JUST SAY YOU WILL GO TO BED ALSO AND TELEPORT TO ANOTHER PART OF THE CEMETERY.]
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[imagining just being stuck in a room and corpses fall from the ceiling. lovely. they finish covering the tomb with dirt and sit back with their hands on their knees, watching him put the flowers in.]
...thank you, Jason. [it's so stupid and in the longrun it doesn't change anything, but it does sort of make them feel a little better so.]
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[Haha.... Imagine. It's fine. IT'S FINE. He bumps Aquarius with his shoulder gently.]
It's hard being the one left behind. Sometimes you're angry, sometimes you're sad. Sometimes you feel guilty. You're left with all this... stuff weighing you down. It's real hard to slog through.
But it's alright to keep living when people are gone. It's okay to forget them, but it's also okay to remember them too.
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...I spent a long time forgetting my mother. And then I did everything I could to try and remember anything. And B--[too close. too much.] My sister left on a trip with a few of the others. They promised she'd be safe and come back. That obviously didn't happen, even if she was thinking of me when she died. To not remember either of them would disgrace their memory. I want to remember. Always. Even when it's too much.
[...] Some people understand. Some don't. So when they do it...helps, a little.
[and now they feel like they said too much so they just go quiet again. ]
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I found out she wasn't later because a sociopath had her as a hostage. So I went on my own. Don't know how old you are, but how you felt in what I saw... I'm guessing I was probably about your age. Anyway. You saw how that turned out. She was with me when the whole place blew.
[His hands are dirty, but he reaches out to take a hold of one of Aquarius's and jostle it lightly. Affection week, sue him. He uses the hand to pull Aquarius up when he slowly rises.]
You're pretty strong, wanting to remember. I'm going to have to look up to you, I think?
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I think...you and I may be more similar than you think, actually. [but they take a breath and seem to compose themselves again.] It's not something to do lightly. But...I think it's worth it, in the end.
[they're a little flattered and baffled and don't know how to deal so there you go.]
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[He laughs a bit, but nods and glances back at the little paper tombstones.]
I think you might be right. That it’s worth it. [He reaches out to tug their hat down like usual. Hehe.] Thanks for the cigarette.
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they let this happen this time though, a vaguely disgruntled noise that's half-hearted at best.]
Sure. Guest relations, you know? [a pause.] Thanks for remembering.
[to. do this? to tell them about the cyoa? that they exist period? sure. it's been a long, busy day and his girlfriend's emotionally distraught. they are aware other people need jason's attention.]
...guess I'll see you later?
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He is fond. Affection week, suffer. They are both suffering.]
Do you want to? See me later.
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You'd show up whether I wanted you to or not. [they just point this out.] ...you're consistent. It'd be dumb to break the pattern now.
[so. yes. but they will die before outright admitting it.]
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I know, but I'll hang out with you other times if you really want. If you miss me that much.
[He's teasing.]
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...don't you have other people that want to be around you?
[look. listen. shut up.]
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I'm a big boy. There's enough of me to go around. [He gives them a soft, but still teasing sort of look.] Just because there are other people, who for some weird ass reason like my company, doesn't mean I can't make time to hang out with you, too.
You're pretty cool.
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Then okay. Whenever you have time or you want to. You know where the bell is. [they do seem, like, marginally pleased though.]
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Alright. I'll come annoy you later. Go change your gloves before you get in trouble for being dirty in front of guests.
[:)
He literally has to go wash his hands, so he can't talk.]
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Joke's on you. I'm probably just going to bed.
[sometimes you depression nap.]
But fine. Go clean up and maybe relieve Cloud from Lup duty for a bit. I'll be around whenever.
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Bed doesn't sound like a bad idea right now.
[DON'T AGREE. Unfortunately, he agrees. Same person. Two of them.]
Alright, alright. I'm going. Hey. Take care of yourself, okay?
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I'll be fine. Take care of yourself, too.
[and when jason blinks next, he'll find that aquarius has disappeared.]
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...Don't leave me in the graveyard by myself, dammit.
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they appear in front of him and just. stare.]
My bad.
[but they will at least be nice enough to take him by the hand to lead him out. were they just. in another part of the graveyard? what the fuck. the world will never know.]
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[HAVE TO COME BACK. HELP. He is now embarrassed because he was heard and also is being escorted out of the graveyard by the hand like a toddler. DON'T JUST SAY YOU WILL GO TO BED ALSO AND TELEPORT TO ANOTHER PART OF THE CEMETERY.]
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I forgot something. Don't worry about it.
[OUT THEY GO.]
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[Just going out of the cemetery then, thank you?!]
Okay.
[He will accept his fate. No one has to know this happened at all.]
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Think you can take it from here? [no one has to know.]
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[Very quickly and immediately walking off.
But it's affection week, so he comes slinking back like a dog.] --Thanks. [AND THEN HE VERY QUICKLY POWER WALKS AWAY AGAIN.]