Ah. [she chews her lip.] I have a memory of purchasing an identical spear, but I cannot find it in my room. And it was Aikawa I was thinking of targeting, but...I can't tell if I'm inventing things.
[that's the problem with brain problems; adding up the evidence doesn't quite work because you don't know which part is the hallucination.]
[ they agree, quietly, and then absently knead their thumb into their palm. ]
...Maybe once the dust settles, things'll become a little clearer. The whole trial just finished - lots of details to unpack. If... maybe make a list, of the things you know right now, whatever discrepancies you're finding, then take a break and come back to it.
[ it's what they would do. ] 's the, uh, sciencey way to go about it, or something. Right?
... for the second bit, they have to pause, first? like they're sort of gathering what they want to say. or maybe they're just actually a huge weenie and criminally bad at saying important things. ]
...Worried - Because I care about you, that's why, and I don't want to see you hurt. We had a pretty big talk about it all earlier in the week, yeah? Whether you went through with it, or were just thinking about it. Had you on my mind.
[she looks at them, wary, still frowning in that childish way, like she's working too hard to hold back a feeling and not doing well at it. but then she glances away, a bit chilly again.]
[ they shrug their shoulders. ] Nothing to apologize for. Can't blame you for it. Just a stranger with one of these, y'know? [ they pluck at the veil. ]
[ this is a normal line of thinking and a normal way for people to act as far as they are concerned ]
Or let your guard down. I guess I'm not asking you to trust me if you don't want to, or don't feel like I'm particularly trustworthy. [ a beat. ] Whether you trust me or not, 's not gonna stop me caring about you, though.
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[ ...
they're quiet for a second, before they pull something from their sleeve - a similar compact mirror - and offer it to her. ]
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...Oh. You see it, too. I had wondered.
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[ they close the mirror and take it back, and then. sigh. it's a little heavy. tired. ]
You'll - yeah. I do. You said you didn't go through with it, in your message, right? What're you thinking? Let's go sit down.
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[she'll sit by her desk, but there's room on the uncomfortable bed.]
I intended to kill someone this week, but I wound up not waking up.
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Right. [ they say. they are very stiff where they're sitting, tense. ] There a 'but' on the end of that sentence?
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[that's the problem with brain problems; adding up the evidence doesn't quite work because you don't know which part is the hallucination.]
The bruise is real. Hmm.
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[ they agree, quietly, and then absently knead their thumb into their palm. ]
...Maybe once the dust settles, things'll become a little clearer. The whole trial just finished - lots of details to unpack. If... maybe make a list, of the things you know right now, whatever discrepancies you're finding, then take a break and come back to it.
[ it's what they would do. ] 's the, uh, sciencey way to go about it, or something. Right?
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[ boy howdy they do. ] ...I uh, get migraines sometimes. Lots of water and laying in the dark helps. Warm compresses for your head, too.
If nothing else, you hustled today. You probably should rest. [ a beat. ] I. Probably should've just let you type and let you rest, huh.
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[even if she's a bit drained.]
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Wow. High compliment. I'm not unhappy to see you either.
[ be nice, aquila!! they're obviously teasing, though. ] You had me worried.
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...Worried? Why?
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[ lol.
... for the second bit, they have to pause, first? like they're sort of gathering what they want to say. or maybe they're just actually a huge weenie and criminally bad at saying important things. ]
...Worried - Because I care about you, that's why, and I don't want to see you hurt. We had a pretty big talk about it all earlier in the week, yeah? Whether you went through with it, or were just thinking about it. Had you on my mind.
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Why are you saying that?
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Don't toy with me.
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... they pause for a moment, and then shake their head. ]
Harrow. [ and... their words are genuine. a little less gravelly rough than usual. ] I promise that I care about you.
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If you say so.
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they huff a little, and push off the bed, coming over, though they just kind of kneel down where she is. ]
Words're cheap, I know. Not easy to prove. [ but, they tilt their head up to look at her. ] But, I wouldn't say it if I didn't mean it.
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I'm sorry. I'm being quite silly.
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[ they shrug their shoulders. ] Nothing to apologize for. Can't blame you for it. Just a stranger with one of these, y'know? [ they pluck at the veil. ]
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[she looks at her nubby bitten fingernails, mouth twisting.]
And you must admit that I don't and can't know what you're really after.
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[ aquila sounds thoughtful. ]
... People caring's not always synonymous with them wanting something from you, though.
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[she chews her thumbnail.]
But that doesn't mean I ought to allow myself to be easily manipulated.
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[ this is a normal line of thinking and a normal way for people to act as far as they are concerned ]
Or let your guard down. I guess I'm not asking you to trust me if you don't want to, or don't feel like I'm particularly trustworthy. [ a beat. ] Whether you trust me or not, 's not gonna stop me caring about you, though.
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