That's understandable, I think. Your situation is particularly different in that regard, though... [ ... ] Being in a position like this one is perhaps its own kind of helpless, sometimes, too.
It was the worst thing in the world to be where you are. It's not great to be on this side, but having been through it, uh. It would've killed me if my sinners hadn't saved our bacon.
[they reach up, rubbing a gloved hand against one of their shoulders. ] So... I suppose that's what you plan to do here, right? With this place, or at least perhaps with the people around the hotel.
... To burn out is a terrible thing. Then, let me ask you this: you had to pretend and be disingenuous before.
What do you think will be worse? Allowing yourself to become attached, and burning out on how much you care for others? Or lying, and allowing yourself to go numb to it all?
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[ so, maybe.
it comes back to being helpless. ]
That's understandable, I think. Your situation is particularly different in that regard, though... [ ... ] Being in a position like this one is perhaps its own kind of helpless, sometimes, too.
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It was the worst thing in the world to be where you are. It's not great to be on this side, but having been through it, uh. It would've killed me if my sinners hadn't saved our bacon.
And not in a physical death sort of way.
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...I read a bit of it, in your files. You were all faced with a difficult decision.
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[ .... ]
But they saved your bacon, as you said.
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[a pause.]
Left it better than they found it. [that makes her smile a little.]
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What an interesting philosophy that is.
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[they reach up, rubbing a gloved hand against one of their shoulders. ] So... I suppose that's what you plan to do here, right? With this place, or at least perhaps with the people around the hotel.
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Some people are not going to let me. Maybe I should follow Cloud's advice - not that you need to be telling him that, mind you.
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Your secrets are safe with me, Miss Lup. What was his advice?
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To not burn out.
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[ a little softer. ]
... To burn out is a terrible thing. Then, let me ask you this: you had to pretend and be disingenuous before.
What do you think will be worse? Allowing yourself to become attached, and burning out on how much you care for others? Or lying, and allowing yourself to go numb to it all?
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The second one. [she says finally.] I don't want to lose my heart in the process of all of this. I can't. Not again.
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they nod.]
...Then, let that be the thing that guides your actions, here. I don't think there's anything wrong with that.
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I'm already tired. This bodes well.
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You've had a long day, to say the least. A long week. [a beat.] A long several months, really.
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... Yeah. [she says, and she kind of slumps.] I don't feel like I've been able to relax in... in a long time.
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they sound sympathetic, though they don't reach out or anything, folding their hands in front of them. ]
You have been through this for a longer period than many: it can be difficult, to be vigilant for so long.
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Well, who knows. Maybe I'll get the chance to nap eventually.
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You're more than welcome to sneak off and nap behind our desk. I won't tell anyone.
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[wheeze.]
Maybe I'll come see you again next week. You can stand guard while I nap, it'll be great and totally not boring for you.
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...I wouldn't mind.
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Creepy! [she says, but - it's teasing, and there's a little flicker of something in her gaze even as she's looking away.]
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-- and then, they clear their throat, rolling their shoulders back again and straightening. ]
... I - I just think you should have the chance to sleep in peace, is all.